Being thankful.....

Today is day 3 which also happens to be Thanksgiving....

I woke up with a major stomach and headache, no doubt it was caused by my excessive drinking last night.
I was up all night preparing our meal... Let's see....I made: collard greens, baked summer beans, Turkey, dressing, Mac n cheese, sweet potatoes, and rolls. I really out did myself this year, I mean I was suppose to be cooking for 5 but it quickly turned into 3. I always get bummed out around the holidays...family is soooooo important to me and with every passing season it feels like we are growing farther and farther apart. I invited everyone to come over and even said I'd buy and prepare all the meals, yet no one showed...my wife told me not to get my hopes up too high but of course I did. After all these are the same people who I invited to my 30th birthday party and didn show up. I have since then cried my last cry for my family, now I just distance myself and when they miss me....well let's just say that my number hasn't changed in years.....

I am thankful for many things but the thing that I am most thankful for is the gift of life. Even though I tried to take my own life as a teenager, I am forever thankful that I didn suceed! I now know that I have a purpose for being here. Somedays are better than others but non the less everyday is a blessing. I have grown mentally, spiritually, and physically (lol).

As ny Thanksgiving went on I eventually got over the disappointments and made do with what I have...which are a beautiful wife and a handsome child :) I'm off work the next couple of days and plan on spending lots of time with my loves.....speaking of loves, its just about bed time and I have a long day ahead of me.

If you don't believe in yourself...no one else will.